I’m sick of hearing myself speak in a snappy tone of voice. I don’t yell, and I don’t lose my temper, but things come out… snappy.
“Christina, STOP hanging on me! I’m trying to get dinner ready!”
“Rebecca, get to BED! It’s 930!”
“Allison, what do you WANT?”
“SERIOUSLY, Allison. WHAT DO YOU WANT?”
Inevitably, the snappy tone involves verbal capitalization and exclamation points. And I hate it. And I know that years down the road, it won’t matter if dinner was at 630 or 730 one night, Christina-hugs matter more… and Rebecca will learn to appreciate sleep even if she doesn’t know. So really, me getting upset over these things is pointless, but I do it anyway.
I’m really not sure how to stop, but I really am sure that despite the lack of logic, you all will understand pretty well.
So, rather than controlling my snappiness, I’m going to fake it ’til I make it- I’m going to try and control the TONE. Speak nicely, and maybe I’ll wind up BEING nicer? Stranger things have happened.
Wish me luck…